If I decided to reflect on swimming, I would have to go waaaay back to my childhood and there would be waaay too many things I could say about it, way too many incidents and there would be waaaay too many negative feelings attached to that trail of thoughts .. so I keep it simple:
I went back to the pool this morning… i stopped last year because of different reasons after i had pushed myself 2 years ago, dealt with some fears and kinda taught myself how to swim, long-long story…
So, today I had one goal apart from not drowning (I’m not even joking) : to start it all again and swim at least 10 lengths (it’s a small pool, don’t worry 😂)… ok, that’s maybe two goals 🙈
If I decide to do something I’ll do everything I can to do it and finish it… but it was a constant battle of voices in my head this morning in the pool… my voice of panic and anxiety as I struggle to breathe, forget to focus, step out of the rhythm, mind drifting away and making me lose concentration and forgetting to breathe, trying to go too fast not enough air… and so on… for me it’s hard work… but then I also had the voice of the coach in my head, who is on my side and telling me all sorts of encouragement and the voice I’ve learnt to listen to in these past years:
“It’s ok…”
“you can slow down”
“you can put your feet down any time “
“you just did a length without stopping, you can do it again “
“see, you just did it”
“you can rest now “
… and when i touched the wall of the pool i was swimming towards, i did praise myself and i smiled under the water… it was a big grin 😂
There were many times I paused or wanted to stop completely … but then I went for it again… reset and try again…and again…
And then I looked at my Tshirt as i was drying my hair (multitasking, just like in the water) … It says: One Day…
And then I remembered what i often say to clients, encouraging commitment, challenging procrastination and reinforcing goals…. when do You start? “One Day”? Or is today “Day One”?
Make today Day One!
💕
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